Shut up, shut up, SHUT UP!

Why? Why won't he just go away? Doesn't he see that I don't need him? I know who I really am, and whatever he says is not going to change that!

It's that time of the month again.

And this on top of being sick.Why me?

Well that was the weirdest thing ever.

I don't know why I couldn't sign in.

Why would I feel the need to speed up my blog?

The loading time is fine.

I'm probably going to be somewhere tomorrow. I dunno where.

My dad has yet to decide AND NOW MY HICCUPS ARE BACK. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHLFAEFLKJLAKEJALEFLJALSFJIOAWJRFLKSDJIAWHTNAWI:HNATIOWHNFSDAFDIAQWKJMNRFLWA!!!!!111111111

Why would I want to earn money from my blog?

I'm perfectly happy with it the way it is. I don't need Google and its stupid advertising BS.

Everything's fine now.

I'm not in trouble any more... at least... not there. I can't go back to the other place until the end of the school year.

I hate being sick.

Hate it, hate it, hate it. ;_;

It's a new day, but it all feels old

It's a good life, that's what I'm told
But everything, it all just feels the same

At my high school, it felt more to me
Like a jail cell, a penitentiary
My time spent there, it only made me see

That I don't ever wanna be like you
And I don't wanna do the things you do
I'm never gonna hear the words you say
And I don't ever wanna

I don't ever wanna be you
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is
This is the anthem, throw all your hands up
You
Don't wanna be you

Go to college or university
Get a real job, that's what they said to me
But I could never live the way they want

I'm gonna get by, and just do my time
Out of step while they all get in line
I'm just a minor threat, so pay no mind

Do you really wanna be like them?
Do you really wanna be another trend?
Do you wanna be part of that crowd?
'Cuz I don't ever wanna

I don't ever wanna be you
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is
This is the anthem, throw all your hands up
You
Don't wanna be you

(Shake it once, that's fine
Shake it twice, that's OK
Shake it three times, you're playing with yourself again)

You
Don't wanna be just like you
What I'm sayin' is
This is the anthem, throw all your hands up
Y'all got the feeling, sing if you're with me

You
Don't wanna be just like you
This is the anthem, throw all your hands up
Y'all got the feeling, sing if you're with me
Another loser anthem (whoa)
Another loser anthem (whoa)
Another loser anthem (whoa)
Another loser anthem (whoa)

Agh... this cough won't go away!!

Help...

Even though I cannot be there, in my heart I feel what he feels... somehow...

I'm standin' on the bridge
I'm waitin' in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothin' but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening, but there's no sound


Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I'm trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand, take me somewhere new?
I don't know who you are, but I, I'm with you
I'm with you


I'm lookin' for a place
I'm searchin' for a face
Is there nobody here I know?
'Cuz nothing's goin' right
And everything's a mess
And no-one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I'm trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand, take me somewhere new?
I don't know who you are, but I, I'm with you
I'm with you


Oh
Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah, yeah yeah
Yeah

It's a damn cold night
I'm trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand, take me somewhere new?
I don't know who you are, but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are, but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are, but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

I'm with you

What's with the related videos section for the Cut Man video?

It's all NSFW stuff. As if I'd look at any of that. I mean, come on, Google. Yeesh.

Am I... going mad?

I might be. I might not be. All I know is that the moment I go under the anesthetic, I'll forget everything except who I really am and who I can really trust.

I have everything... and it still doesn't feel right.

Day by day, I'm feeling more and more of a connection to the main character of Final Fantasy X... Tidus, wasn't it? Yes, that's his name. I don't know why he seems familiar to me. Maybe... maybe it's because of what he is, and what's left for me to hold onto. Or perhaps it's the fact that we both have similar relationships with someone in our lives. I just... don't know any more. All I know is I want to be free.

We made plans to kiss the sun at night
Hopeless dreamers, hopeless types
Shedding skin, you show your beauty scars
Don't forget me or who you are


You know
This don't feel right
Who knows
What we feel?


I just met you, I can read your thoughts
What they tell me is what I want
I'll keep you guessing, keep you wanting more
'Cuz where we're going, no-one knows

Hey now, you know
This don't feel right
Who knows
This could feel right


See, I just met you, I swear I read your thoughts
So don't forget me or what you want

Light up the stage
Make your move
Give me something
So I can dance in your light
And to your rhythm


Soon it unfolds
Who we are
In this masquerade of stars
Tear off the mask, the face you hide
Is what I'm missing

We made plans to kiss the sun at night
Hopeless dreamers, hopeless types
One was turning, one was standing still
I won't forget what was promised here


You know
This don't feel right
Who knows
What we feel?

I'm just about ready to kill someone.

None of this was ever real in the first place...

Da-da-dum-da-da
Da-da-dum-da-da
Da-da-dum-da-da-da-dum

Da-da-dum-da-da
Da-da-dum-da-da
Da-da-dum-da-da-da-dum

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Tryin' hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no-one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Da-da-dum-da-da
Da-da-dum-da-da
Da-da-dum-da-da-da-dum

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Far away
And breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swingin' 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But I gotta keep movin' on, movin' on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget that ol' place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway


Breakaway
Breakaway 

Drowning myself in various Let's Plays.

Just to take my mind off of... well, everything.

I just realised something.

The time thing on this is all wrong.

Ah, fuck.

Now I'm in even more trouble than I already was. That's another site I'll have to stay away from for a while! At least, until I forget... now I really can't wait to go under the anesthetic. I wish my appointment would hurry up and be announced!

Tracing, tracing, tracing, tracing~ Tracing away the minutes of the night~

So many lines that need to be traced~ Sometimes mistakes that need to be erased~ Uh, wha? Whowhatwhenwherehowajagabadahuh? Where was I? Oh yeah. Currently tracing over a picture of Arcueid from Tsukihime in order to make the outline for a fan character. Stopped paying attention to what I was listening to a while ago. Back to tracing nao! Rose out.

Mum reckons I can have tomorrow off as well.

(deadpan) W00t. Anyway, that aside, the stupid rain's finally stopped. >.<; Currently listening to music from the outside. My dad's working on an extension for the house that will be our new kitchen and bathroom, and he's playing the radio, so that's what I can hear. 100.9 SeaFM is the station. It's my favourite, so I think he set it to that for me. It's currently playing "Times Like These" by the Foo Fighters. Great band. Rose out.

*sigh*

Rain, rain and MORE BLOODY RAIN. When will it end? On top of that, I'm getting headaches at random intervals for apparently no reason. Why is this happening to meeeeeeeeee ;_; I'm gonna go get rid of my boredom with the rest of this FFX LP I've been watching. Rose out.

Recipe repost

Since I, uh, can't sign in to my other blog, I thought I'd repost the recipe for creamy broccoli & bacon fettuccine here. So yeah.

CREAMY BROCCOLI & BACON FETTUCCINE

500g fresh fettuccine pasta
30g butter
1 small onion
2 bacon rashers, chopped
1 clove garlic, crushed
250g broccoli, finely chopped
1/2 cup (125ml) chicken stock
300ml cream
2 tbs grated Parmesan cheese

Add pasta to large pan of boiling water, boil, uncovered, until just tender; drain, keep warm.
Heat butter in pan, add onion, bacon & garlic, cook, stirring until onion is soft.
Add broccoli and stock, cook, covered, 5 minutes.
Stir in cream & cheese, bring to boil, simmer, uncovered, about 5 minutes or until sauce thickens slightly.
Mix sauce through pasta.

SERVES 4

So, there ya go! Enjoy~ Rose out.

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AIDBAJKFNAJKSNFOKAFNKANFASFNBDSIUDGS I CANNOT BELIEVE I FORGOT MY FRIGGIN' PASSWORD LIKE A DUMBASS AND NOW I'VE HAD TO MAKE ANOTHER BLOG BECAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY DJFKLSDJGKLDSJGKJANFJKsnSFJASFJWSAFJWSNFKJASNFASFAJSNFJKASNFJW *several Sound Effect Bleeps later* OK, OK, I'm good. Anyway, I found out what channel TOS was showing on... not that I wanted to know. It's on GO, so I won't be watching that channel any time this afternoon, no sir no ma'am.

Aaand the weather down here is currently utter shite. Rain, rain and more rain. Ugh. To make matters worse, I've still got the flu. FML. ;_; Even my body is against me. Rose out.